Vagina Monologues

unofficial, autobiographical, trans-femme monologue @ It Grows Wild

I was invited to perform a Vagina Monologue, and ended up writing my own.

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The Vagina Monologues never intended to be a play about what it means to be a woman. It is and always has been a play about what it means to have a vagina.

Eve Ensler

In 2004, Eve Ensler wrote a trans monologue for a cast of 5 trans women. I imagine they had a wide range of genital shapes and sizes, but what do I know. I imagine the monologue for trans men got lost in the mail. [1]

That official trans-femme monologue is titled “They Beat The Girl Out Of My Boy… Or So They Tried” – which you can find online if you’re interested. It’s full of pain and violence, beatings, medical interventions, and eventually surgery. It’s based on true stories, but the 5-voice structure is very impersonal, and somehow still results in a singular narrative. [2]

But that story is not my story, so we agreed that I should write a new one. Here it is, my rogue monologue – performed as part of the brilliant production by It Grows Wild theater company. It was a real pleasure to work with such a great group of women.

Despite undergoing bottom surgery recently, I didn’t want to perpetuate a narrative that surgery makes us women. Instead, this monologue is almost entirely based on my pre-surgery experience of having an “inverted” vagina.

Parts of it (especially the opening) will be familiar if you’ve read my work. Most of it is new material.


  1. I don’t assume trans men want a monologue – but they do (sometimes) have vaginas… ↩︎

  2. Ironically, after bemoaning the dangers of a single story, Chimamanda Adichie still rejects trans womanhood because it doesn’t fit her narrative… ↩︎

theater’ orgs

54 ‘theater’ episodes

2019

2018

Outside The Room @ Denver Center for the Performing Arts

A family struggles to find humanity and normalcy in a world made uncertain and strange after the transformation and “othering” of one of their own. This physical theatre piece imagines what happens on the other side of the iconic door in Kafka’s Metamorphosis.

JANE/EYRE @ The Bakery

We are not here to flatter egotism, or prop up humbug; we are merely telling the [queer] story. We value what is good in the book; but we believe in the existence of other, and more vivid kinds of goodness.

2017

2016

The In-Between @ Rio Mesa Center

a site-specific performance in the Utah desert

2015

The In-Between @ Rio Mesa Center

a site-specific performance in the Utah desert

2014

The Post-Obsolete BookELO Conference

in a Post-Obsolete World, as Represented by a Post-Obsolete Book About Dance

2013

The Post-Obsolete Book @ Brakhage Center Media Arts

in a Post-Obsolete World, as Represented by a Post-Obsolete Book About Dance

The Post-Obsolete Book @ Media Archeology Lab | &Now Festival

in a Post-Obsolete World, as Represented by a Post-Obsolete Book About Dance

The Post-Obsolete Book @ SpringGun Journal, Issue 8

in a Post-Obsolete World, as Represented by a Post-Obsolete Book About Dance

The Post-Obsolete Book @ Boulder Writer’s Workshop

in a Post-Obsolete World, as Represented by a Post-Obsolete Book About Dance

2012

The Post-Obsolete BookSLSA 2012 – Electronic Literature and the Nonhuman

| Milwaukee, WI

in a Post-Obsolete World, as Represented by a Post-Obsolete Book About Dance

The Post-Obsolete Book @ Leon Presents a Reading Series #6

in a Post-Obsolete World, as Represented by a Post-Obsolete Book About Dance

The Post-Obsolete Book @ post-obsolete.com

An archival rhizome ecology in ten parts, and a reflection on the obsolescence of obsolescence – documented on the cloud, and open-sourced as a defense against post-post-obsolescence.

2010

Script – Missa Populi

A modern, theatrical interpretation of the Catholic Mass – created by Grapefruit Lab and Teacup Gorilla.

Missa Populi @ PackingHouse Center for the Arts

Combining the sacrifice, transcendence, blood, and circumstance of the Catholic Mass with history, live music, science, dance, literature, and pop culture to find a wholly modern communion experience. What we have left is our selves, broken and battered, but surviving together.

2009

A Murder One Less @ Boulder International Fringe Festival

| Denver, CO

multimedia performance & theater ensemble

RAIN/ of terrorBINDERY | space

| Denver, CO

meta-media performance collective

2008

Untitled #39 @ Dresden Dolls

| Denver, CO

meta-media performance collective

The LIDA Project

| Denver, CO

Founded in 1995, The LIDA Project is a meta-media art collective dedicated to experimental live performance.

2007

Countdown to Zero

| Denver, CO

Countdown to Zero is a political theatre collective established in 2007 by Brian Freeland & Julie Rada. The collective has committed to a series of 10 theatrical works (10 counting down to zero) at which time the collective will disband.

Bigger Guns III @ New World Arts

| Goshen, IN

ensemble theater and event space

2006

Hello and Goodbye @ New World Arts

| Goshen, IN

ensemble theater and event space

Fear/Falling @ New World Arts

| Goshen, IN

ensemble theater and event space

2005

Sadomasochism @ New World Arts

| Goshen, IN

ensemble theater and event space

2004

Criminal Hearts @ New World Arts

| Goshen, IN

ensemble theater and event space

Every Other Day @ New World Arts

| Goshen, IN

ensemble theater and event space

In a Time of War @ New World Arts

| Goshen, IN

ensemble theater and event space

2003

2002

A Lie of the Mind @ New World Arts

| Goshen, IN

ensemble theater and event space

2001

The House of Yes @ New World Arts

| Goshen, IN

ensemble theater and event space

New World Arts

| Goshen, IN

Founded in 1998 as New World Players, we produced original & alternative ensemble theater for over a decade – along with an art gallery and event space.