• An LGBT concert of writers and composers by the Playground Ensemble, with three works by LGBT authors and the composers.

    Fragments @ Invisible City (by Mirriam & Nathan Hall)

    Fragments (lyrics)

    We have a story in my family. My brother is young, nursing his favorite doll. He says I’m going to be a mommy when I grow up! Mom is proud but corrects him –  boys grow up to be daddies.

    He sets down the doll, and never picks it back up. Cis doesn’t mean simple, he tells me now, a father of two. I keep my dolls much later in life, their unexpected aunt.

    I never felt like a girl. What do girls feel like? I didn’t always know, and dream of wearing dresses. I wasn’t consistent, insistent, or persistent. I was frustrated.

    A friend asks me what it means to be a woman. I have no idea. What does it mean for you to be your gender?

    Hanson is on the radio.
    Why is Hanson on the radio?

    If I had a story like that, maybe everything would make sense. Maybe I could string this together into a narrative: beginning, middle, and end. Life doesn’t work that way.

    A visiting trans friend asks where I get my Testosterone. I make it inside my body, I tell him. I’d give it to you if I could.

    Hormones are slow magic.

    In my dreams, I’m transgender.
    In the mirror, I’m uncertain.
    In public, I’m a woman.

    In Colorado, your chosen name has to sue your given name for the right to exist.

    I don’t get to put all the pieces together. “Passing” is not something I do, but something that happens to me — not a way of presenting, but a way of being seen. Fickle. In a single moment I can be seen and not seen, gendered and misgendered. Ungendered, and undressed.

    I don’t believe in authenticity, but I do believe in pain, and doing something to survive it.

    Trying on clothes to see if they fit is way better than trying on clothes to see if your gender fits. I didn’t know there was a difference, until everything changed.

    I can finally hate my body for the normal reasons.

    music’ orgs

    Teacup Gorilla

    Bass & Vocals: dark indie-rock soundscapes with evocative poetry

    96 ‘music’ episodes

    2019

    Last Bullet @ Seventh Circle Sessions

    | music video

    live-filmed music video

    A Dark Plain @ Seventh Circle Sessions

    | music video

    live-filmed music video

    2018

    Teacup Gorilla @ Ross-Cherry Creek Library

    | music | Denver, CO

    Not the UMS @ Remixed Gifts

    | music | Denver, CO

    Speaking of PrideInvisible City

    | music | Denver, CO

    An LGBT concert of writers and composers by the Playground Ensemble, with three works by LGBT authors and the composers.

    JANE/EYRE @ The Bakery

    | theater

    We are not here to flatter egotism, or prop up humbug; we are merely telling the [queer] story. We value what is good in the book; but we believe in the existence of other, and more vivid kinds of goodness.

    2017

    Teacup Gorilla @ 7th Circle Music Collective

    | music | Denver, CO

    Teacup Gorilla @ Syntax Physic Opera

    | music | Denver, CO

    Anti-UMS Fest @ 1010 Workshop

    | music | Denver, CO

    ACLU Benefit @ The Bakery

    | music | Denver, CO

    2016

    Teacup Gorilla @ Syntax Physic Opera

    | music | Denver, CO

    Underground Music Showcase @ Illegal Pete’s

    | music

    Founded in 2001, The UMS is an annual three-day celebration of music featuring hundreds of bands across multiple venues.

    MoonConf @ Galvanize Boulder

    | music | Boulder, CO

    Teacup Gorilla @ The Squire Lounge

    | music | Denver, CO

    Teacup Gorilla @ 7th Circle Music Collective

    | music | Denver, CO

    Teacup Gorilla @ 7th Circle Music Collective

    | music | Denver, CO

    2015

    THTL Midwest Tour @ Gabe’s Iowa City

    | music tour | Iowa City, IA

    Teacup Gorilla goes on the road…

    THTL Midwest Tour @ Private Beach Party

    | music tour | New Buffalo, MI

    Species of the Stars @ The Bakery

    | music video | Denver, CO

    We’re excited to be part of the single release for Species of the Stars by our good friends Open to the Hound!

    EP Release Party @ Hi Dive

    | album | Denver, CO

    Teacup Gorilla’s debut album

    Departure Tour @ Tennyson’s Tap

    | music | Denver, CO

    Teacup Gorilla @ G***y House Cafe

    | music | Denver, CO

    Teacup Gorilla @ Merchant’s Mile High Saloon

    | music | Denver, CO

    2014

    Teacup Gorilla @ Pikes Peak Brewing Co.

    | music | Monument, CO

    Teacup Gorilla @ Pikes Peak Brewing Co.

    | music | Monument, CO

    Queen City Magnetic @ BandCamp

    | album

    Not our album, but we did write a few of the songs…

    2013

    Teacup Gorilla @ Herman’s Hideaway

    | music | Denver, CO

    2012

    2010

    Raven Jane @ BandCamp

    | org

    For a few years, Teacup Gorilla performed & recorded music with Rachel Eisenstat – initially as Iron City, and later as Raven Jane.

    Iron City @ BandCamp

    | album

    For a few years, Teacup Gorilla performed & recorded music with Rachel Eisenstat – initially as Iron City, and later as Raven Jane.

    Wedding @ Butterfly Pavilion

    | music | Boulder, CO

    Fundraiser @ The Packing House

    | music | Denver, CO

    Missa Populi @ PackingHouse Center for the Arts

    | theater

    Combining the sacrifice, transcendence, blood, and circumstance of the Catholic Mass with history, live music, science, dance, literature, and pop culture to find a wholly modern communion experience. What we have left is our selves, broken and battered, but surviving together.

    2009

    2007